In the absence of all else, there's always music.

It's amazing what you stumble upon sometimes. A couple of years ago I made a compilation of my favourite music of that time for my girlfriend of that time. She really was a gorgeous creature. Leggy and statuesque; with long dark auburn hair, kind eyes, an intoxicating smile, and a wit, spirit, and intellect to match. Sadly, time, place, and my own insecurities conspired against me. Oh boy, the things we do for love or at least the promise of it. Here's what I wrote:

Like most things in life that are born of passion, music evokes something from within. The sweet caress of a voice, the poignancy of a lyric, or perhaps an exquisite melody or sound has the power to conjure up a memory of a place, a time, an emotion, even a person. Like somebody kissing you gently in the neck, sending shivers down your spine, awakening your senses. Music is all of these things to me. It will always be a trusted source of inspiration. A day does not go by without music. It would simply be unfinished. Meaningless like a film without a soundtrack.

Rock
1. U2 - Electric Storm
“The sea it swells like a sore head and the night it is aching. "
2. Audioslave - I Am The Highway
“I am not your rolling wheels, I am the highway.
I am not your carpet ride, I am the sky.
I am not your blowing wind, I am the lightning.
I am not your autumn moon, I am the night.”
3. Hooberstank - Disappear
“There’s a pain that sleeps inside.
It sleeps with just one eye and awakens the moment that you leave.
Though I try to look away, the pain it still remains.
Only leaving when you’re next to me.”
4. Arno Carstens - Another Universe
“From a galaxy of blues, to a universe we choose.
No more crying and just maybe somebody to hold.”
5. Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes
6. Puddle of Mudd - Blurry
7. Seether - Broken
8. Coldplay - Warning Sign
“You were an island to discover.”
9. Roxy Music - Avalon
“Now the party’s over, I’m so tired, then I see you coming out of nowhere.
Much communication in emotion, without conversation or a notion.”
10. Norah Jones - Come Away With Me

Ambient
11. Peace Orchestra - Who Am I
12. Groove Armada - Edge Hill
13. Orbital - Halycon & On
14. Delirium - Terra Firma
15. William Orbit - Water From A Vine Leaf
16. Leftfield - Original
17. Moby - Porcelain
18. Faithless - Evergreen
“All the leaves I’ve loved have fallen, you know that breaks my heart.”
19. Massive Attack - Teardrop
20. Chicane – Low Sun

"I dream of white beaches, of sun dancing off the surface of the water, and of soft light on your face. "

Ah, ain't that nice, folks? Good memories though. Anyway, before you all go running for cover, maybe some of you like the music too. Comments welcome.

Counting to 10...

“In each family a story is playing itself out, and each family's story embodies its hope and despair.” Auguste Napier

This is no more true than at this time of year. Those of us still blessed with immediate family - parents, grandparents, siblings, and of course blacksheep, will understand what an interesting (and trying) time this is.

State of my nation.

Okay, it's been way too long since I posted anything so I'm takin' a leaf outa Annie's book... so to speak. Score ZERO for originality... sorry guys.

Here goes.

My first love was: Tonia

I am baffled by: The way we are ruled by our emotions.

The last person I spoke to on the phone was: A work colleague... about work (duh). I cannot even begin to describe how sad that is.

I cry when: Nobody is watching.

The last friend I saw was: Sam

My favorite song is: One of too many to mention.

My best friend is: Me

My worst enemy is: Unwanted negativity.

When I get home I: Always turn on my tv (one of my really bad habits).

My favorite state is: Being in control - whatever that means.

My sex life is: In hibernation (did I mention I cry sometimes? lol)

My parents are: Missing me.

I dream about: Just about anything.

I don’t have: Enough focus.

I kissed: A good friend (a couple of times) , we decided to keep it that way, and now I hope it's not awkward.

At work I: Work between bouts of talking.

Tomorrow I want to: Wake up earlier.

In high school I was: Timid.

In university I was: Not timid.

Right now I: Need to disconnect.